Missin My Mommy on Xmas!

I have been pretty down in the dumps as the year is coming to an end. I really miss my mom who recently relocated to Las Vegas. Also I have been overly worrying about these pimples/scars on my face, things I need to take care of, and life's ups and downs. However I know there are people out here dealing with so much more than me and it is best to smile because these pimples will eventually fade, my ish will get handled, and well life is up and down. As I get ready to spend my first Xmas ever in my entire life without my mother, I just think I have so much work to do and no time for sadness or madness. Everyday I live it is to make the lives of the ones I love even better and........

I don't want my mother to have to spend another Xmas without me!

The Birth of LoveQueen!

Guess Who's Bizzzack..LOVEQUEEN formerly known as Cristi Dianne. A lot has happened since I stopped blogging about a year and a half ago and as you all know, life has kept going with its ups and downs. These are the times of a skyrocketing unemployment rates, nationwide foreclosures, stolen savings, oil spills, continuous threats of terror, war and natural disasters. Some of these problems have hit very close to home for me and people in my family. I was personally affected by the downward economy when I lost my job of 5 years in blink of an eye and to much surprise. I often think back on that day and the moment when I walked out of my former office with no hope of finding anything new and a question of how will this change my life? I could have never foreseen all the ways that it did and I know it is by God's favor and mercy that I made it thru those difficult days. As a human, I was having a hard time seeing the light through the darkness but as a child of God, I never truly lost faith. Also I am a Cancer and we are known for being incredibly tenacious. One of my many sayings is I am like a cat so I will always land on my feet and I did. With prayers and the support of my family and friends, I found a new job with a Fortune 500 company in exactly one month to the date I got laid off. GOD'S WORK!

Still I couldn't help but feel a void for personal reasons. I was once again caught up in a romantic situation where I was the pursuer and not the pursued. And foolishly, I continued to pursue that situation even tho my better judgment told me to run not walk away. He became what I call a Cristi Idol, someone who I idolized but judged me, wanted me to change, and didn't deem me worth of him. I let him consume me--my time, my energy and my thoughts. This was our third try and well each time I was hopeful that it would get better. Initially I disguised my feelings with friendship but before long, I was open. I knew it and so did he because he used those feelings to take advantage of me. He required of me girlfriend duties but with side bitch say and I desperately complied. Tightly I held on to the fact that he was treating me better than he had the times before but deep down, I knew it still wasn't what I wanted. There was no place I was content even when it came down to us being sexual, I wasn't pleased on any level yet I was there, wanting and willing to love him. I know I was trippin right...I guess I love the chase just like many men do. On a positive note, this third time around I made no room for him to be on that disrespectful bulls*it. And the moment I felt completely disrespected by him was the moment that I vowed to walk away and never look back.

However it was the everyday missing an idea of him and still choosing to love me more that sparked the birth of LoveQueen. I looked down on my tatted body at the mantras that I had placed on me permanently because I once vowed to live by them. One of my tats has a huge heart with LIFE written beneath it to symbolize LOVE LIFE and the other one is on the inside of my wrist with a heart followed by the word, YOU to symbolize LOVE YOU above anything else. I recognize that I am the rare breed that lives to love. I don't live to make money, I don't live for a fancy house or a dope ride, I live for the love of my friends, my family, and one day for the love of a significant other who I will eventually create children with. They will be the products of our shared love. And because I am a LoveQueen, I don't fret about currently being single because I pray on my spirit of patience that makes me content. I patiently await God's preparing of a man filled with enough love to match the kind I possess.

LoveQueen was born July 17, 2010 and will live until the day I die. She is strong, powerful, unafraid to let people go, loving, faithfully and fearless. She doesn't pretend to be something that she is not. She doesn't allow the judgments of what others think to affect what she thinks about herself. She is outside the lines, grinding and progressing. LoveQueen lives boldly, loves like she has never been hurt before, and believes the way God wants her too. LoveQueen Amazes, LoveQueen Loves, LoveQueen Speaks Life.....LoveQueen is Me.

MORE ON THE BREEZY!

Chris Brown is saying that Rihanna striked him first in the car and this is the first time he has ever snapped back. He is also saying that Rih got pissed about the text message and start punching him as well as kirking out in the car. They are saying that the message he left on the voicemail of Rih's assistant after the incident is an admission of guilty. Dayum, I don't know who to believe? I do know that Chris Brown is fine as hell and talented as a mug but it is not acceptable ever to beat someone the way they described in the affadavit.

DAYUM YOU GOT CAUGHT UP HOMIE!

TELL ME WHAT THEY KNOW!

FYI, I am CERTIFIED HELLA CRUNK about LOVE VS MONEY by THE DREAM. It hits the store tomorrow and let me tell you that I will be on itunes at midnight. I told you it is not a game. Recently he released his second single and video off the album, MY LOVE, with Mariah Carey. This is probably one of my favorite songs of the year and well the year just started and I also need to hear the rest of the album. I adore THE DREAM and a real supporter of his moment. Reviews have come and it is being called a "superb sophomore effort." DUH...I didn't expect any less.

Here is the MY LOVE video directed by Nick Cannon and styled by one of best girlfriends, Crystal Streets. Mariah stays with the hood sexy look.


Then there is the remix to ROCKIN THAT THANG with Ludacris, Rick Ross, and fine ass Julez Santana. This joint is shutting the game down and absolutely love the video. I gotta cop some of the new Louis V...I likes.


THE DREAM IS THE TRUTH...MARK MY WORDS, WRITE IT DOWN, TAKE A PICTURE, AND DEFINITELY COP THE ALBUM!

I LOVE IT!

Oprah finally shares the cover of her magazine and it is with no one other than the First Lady herself, Michelle Obama. I absolutely love it. Inside the magazine, Michelle lets Oprah tour the White House and she also talks about when it truly hit her that she lived in the White House. She said after inauguration and all of her guest had left, the reality hit her that they lived in the White House and Barack's job was President of the United States of America.

She also says that she not raising spoil kids and the White House staff has been instructed to not cater to them hand and foot. They have chores and responsibilities just like other kids their age. This is her way of keeping them grounded. I LOVE IT!

Our First Lady was also connecting with the Washington, DC community and put her apron to serve food at a soup kitchen, Miriam's Kitchen. Miriam's Kitchen services over 250 homeless men and women.


SO FAB!

BROWN CHARGED!

Dayum dude is so fine but I am so disappointed that he is a woman beater. Anyway Chris Brown showed up for his court date yesterday and he was formally charged with two felony counts, criminal threat and assault producing bodily harm. He asked for a continuance and it was granted for April 6th. He also did not enter a plea for the incident.

His mother was there to support her son.


This story is truly a hot mess and very sad at the same time.

Rihanna's attorney, Donald Etra, refused the no-contact order and said that Rihanna is okay with the first protective order that the judge read in court saying that Chris can not “annoy, harass, molest, threaten or use force or violence against anyone.”

Check out inside the court on this video below:

NICOLE MURPHY AND MICHAEL STRAHAN ARE OVER!

Nicole Murphy is publicly splitting again but this time with Michael Strahan. He alledgly place a tracking device on her Range Rover. (purchased by Prime Minister Michael Misick of Turks and Caicos - she better be careful because Lisa Raye will still cut her.) He is not new to tracking devices because he supposed used with his last wife and ex sister-in-law. HOT MESS! Why people keep messing with Michael Strahan?

Anyway now Nicole has been linked with his friend, Demetrius Spencer, a Universal Records A&R executive. (pictured above on the right) Supposedly they were taking business trips togethe which were really island getaways to the Caribbean and Mexico...DAYUM.

I was hangin out with this couple in the Hamptons over the summer and they were so in love. Still I could tell Nicole was sort of flirty and she definitely has a way of luring men in with her sass and sexiness. Sources say she is very upset because her kids have grown quite attached to the ex-NFL player and current NFL commentator, Michael Strahan.

ALL GOOD JUST A WEEK AGO!

THE REAL STORY HAS LEAKED!

Rih Rih...OMG this ish is getting crazy. The LAPD interview with Rihanna has leaked so this is how it allegedly all went down:




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If this is true then CB is certified IKE TURNER and needs to be punished.

Word has it that even though Chris is being charged with 2 Felony Counts including criminal threat and assault producing bodily harm, he will more than likely walk away with probation...SHOCKER.

I will keep you updated especially after his arraignment at 3:30 today

HITCHED?

Say it ain't so! Today is Chris' day in court and Rih Rih is refusing to testify. To no surprise, she is planning to ride for her man or is he now her husband? Rumors are surfacing that the two alledegedly became engaged while on Star Island and could have possibly tied the knot already. This is foolery at the highest level and I am going to need Chris or Rih to speak on something ASAP. Also because of Rih's ride or die stance, it looks like the DA will have to convict Chris without her testimony....who wants to bet that he gets slapped with some community service? This is LA LA land and he is a celebrity with his career on the brink.

Keep you posted on if the marital rumors are true but here are a couple pics of him ducking as he heads to Rih's apartment in LA LA.



CHRIS MUST HAVE THAT KILLA D.....I CAN DEFINITELY SEE IT! :)

STARS REACHING OUT TO RIH!

It looks like Rih is the Damsel in Distress and everyone is trying to help her before her and Chris become the modern day, "Ike and Tina". Jigga Man has tried to set up a sit down with Ms. Tina Turner and Rihanna but she is not interested. Also Oprah and Beyonce's camp have both tried to reach out and urge her not to return to Chris. Rih seems to only be listening to herself and her heart. Plus reports are coming out that Rih is not willing to let Chris go because she is extremely possessive and clingy....oh gosh, this is a disaster waiting to happen AGAIN.

TIP HANGIN OUT WITH QUEEN OF THE D-LIST!

THE ODD COUPLE, TIP and KATHY GRIFFIN, were out in LA LA land filming her Bravo award-winning show, Kathy Griffin: My Life on the D-List. The duo even hit up Roscoe's Chicken and Waffles. You know I will be lookin out for this show because I have a real dedication to my boo. I hope him hangin out with whites and helping the children will get him some time deducted off his sentence. :)


TI got that "COON PLEASE STOP TOUCHIN ME!"

PRESIDENT OBAMA SITS WIT A BRIT!

President Barry O sat down with British Prime Minister, Gordon Brown. He is the first European Leader to meet with my main man. They discussed the new stimulus packages for both the United States and Britian.

Awwwe, I LOVE HIM!